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A Letter. [12 Oct 2010|02:46pm]
Dear Allergies,

You've been hanging around here for about 3 weeks now. Normally, I don't mind company, seeing as how I haven't had much anyways, but you've kind of become a bother. You've interrupted my daily breathing and sleeping activities and made it increasingly hard to drive to work during the day. I don't know a nicer way to tell you, but you really need to find a new place to live. I'm not good at breakups, but I'm sure someone else will make you a lot happier. Take care. Or, not.

Love,
Lily.
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[03 Sep 2010|01:44pm]
I've always only done what you asked.

I've stood by your side through everything. Despite everyone telling me you weren't a good friend and that I shouldn't talk to you. I always saw the good and was just happy being your friend.

I don't know what's gotten into you. I don't know what I did to make you hate me. Or as I was told "She doesn't want to associate with you or anyone who associates with you." Remember when Juan said the same thing and you said "That's fucked up, you didn't even DO anything to him!" That's how I feel now.

I want you to know that when you said you needed space, I gave it to you. I don't text you or call you or tweet you; I do reply when you do, but I do not initiate it. I also don't sit around making fake profiles to send you messages, as I've apparently been accused of. I'm not a 12 year old and I just don't have time for that.

I also want you to know that I'm genuinely hurt you couldn't tell me any of this to my face and that this whole ordeal has take place on facebook... fucking facebook!

I have nothing to say other than I am hurt. I regret all the time and effort and money I put into our friendship. Had I known you'd just drop me like a piece of shit, I would... no, I'd still have done everything the same because I'm stupid. I'm writing this here instead of messaging you because I guess if I try e-mailing you or contacting you "it wont end pretty". I'm really tired of being threated over things I'm not doing, either.

I hope you're happy.

[20 Aug 2010|04:04pm]
Hi.
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Writer's Block: Crazy in Love [01 May 2010|01:58am]
What’s the craziest thing you’ve done for love?


Sacrificing my own feelings just to keep someone else happy. I might have something more optimistic to write, but I'm pretty down right now. :)
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Letting Go. [15 Nov 2009|03:25pm]
[ mood | hurt ]

So, in all honesty, I've been pretty fucking happy.

I haven't had any hardcore bouts of depression lately, Javier and I haven't argued in forever, like... really argued like we used to when I would storm out and not come home. It's been awesome.

The only thing still bothering me is certain friendships. I feel I put more effort into these friendships than I should. Good friends keep in touch with each other. Not just via social networking sites. Facebook, twitter... they text you or call you up just to see how you're doing. I cried a lot last night cause I can't figure out why a couple of folks, who I thought I was pretty close with, have just stopped giving a shit about our friendship. They give no effort, some of them don't even have the decency to respond to my messages or texts. It's sad and I'm a very sentimental person who doesn't know how to let go of bad friendships. I try and try, and I think it's about time I just give up. I'm tired of trying to figure out why you are the way you are. So, if I stop trying to talk to you, then you know why. You can either get pissed off about this and bash me, or just realize you've hurt someone's feelings over and over and try to fix it, if you care, that is.

Hell, my "internet friends" (Guillermo, Rowan, and Patrick) talk to me more than certain friends that live within the same city as me! It's bullshit. You should always remember that your friends were here first, they were here when you were going through shit, they were there when you were happy, and they'll be there when you need them. But you gotta be there for them, too. It's a 50/50 thing you know.

Mistakes. [17 Jul 2009|11:51am]
[ mood | relieved ]

People make them.

When people love you, or, a person loves you, they forgive you. I feel insanely fortunate to have Javier, no matter how much I bitch about things, he's the only one for me the only one I want and the only one I need. I've let something off my chest and I feel clean again. I love him so very much. I'm glad he forgave me for what I did. (And no, Nina, if you read this I haven't told you or ANYONE about it, except Guillermo. So don't be mad, I loves you.)

I really wanna thank Melissa... because, we were talking about some things, her and me and our issues and just catching up because I rarely see her, and she told me something I already knew but I guess when somsone else tells you it makes more sense.

People love in different ways.

It's the obvious. I mean, I pour my love out for all to see, I'm insanely affectionate and I guess I just wanted it in return, but she pointed out that Javier loves in the best way he can, and even though it's not super mushy and it's not in songs or paintings, it's there and he means it. I believe him now, I did before, but now more than ever.

I do trust Javier, and I do believe him, but I guess I'm jealous by nature and sometimes it just gets the best of me. I'm working on it. I think there is no where our relationship can go but up from here.

I'll be logged onto AIM today while I'm at work. So text, or IM me, I'll be working so if you don't get an immediate response just chill, I'm not suppose to have my phone at work, so I gotta be sneaky about it. <3

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July = Uber Busy. [08 Jul 2009|12:55pm]
Sigh.

Ok so, so far July has been a busy busy month for me. I work from 3pm-Midnight Monday-Friday, so my only days off are the Weekends, which is about to change because we're going back to mandatory Saturdays. Sooo...

Work. Then Saturday I spent at home for the 4th; it was super effing hot and it kinda sucked, only because of the heat + humidty. I always enjoy hanging out at home with family and eating BBQ. Sunday was spent with Tony D. Food + Movies = Happy Lily.

Back to work Monday-Friday. Saturday is Staci & Jay's wedding, which is actually on one of my mandatory work Saturday's, so I had to dip into my vacation time; I was only given 9 days of vacation so I reeeaaallly didn't wanna use it, but you only get married once (well... in rare cases, I think this is one of them) so I used one day for that. I think something is happening Sunday, either with Nina or Family, I'm not sure.

Work again next week + working Saturday. Same for the following week. I really want a day where I can just stay at home and do nothing... well, maybe clean, the apartment is pretty messy because all I've been doing is sleeping and working. Which is pretty exhausting, especially since my neck has been stiff for a whole week now. Keith (our on-site phsysican) was on vacation, so I've been waiting to talk to him about it. We tried massaging and sleeping different ways, but it still hurts like hell.

I gotta go check on these airlines tickets to Vegas now. I hear that Southwest is having a price battle until 9pm tonight with some other airlines, so let's hope I find some cheap ass tickets!
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Guilty Pleasures... [06 Jul 2009|01:53pm]
So, maybe it makes me a bitch. Maybe not. It's not my charecteristic to laugh or find pleasure in someone else's misery. I'm usually the one to offer comfort and an ear, even to strangers, even to assholes, even to bitches. People who do nothing but talk shit about people they know nothing about, boast about how they "stole" someones man, make fun of an ex girlfriend for posting lyrics to her love (even though she's the one doing it now)... it all comes back to them, usually worse. I hope you find nothing but empty lovers and you spend your nights crying into your lonley pillow for weeks!

^_^ teehee.
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[26 Jun 2009|11:24am]
i was trying to find the entry where i told rowan (you) my measurements,
but i couldn't find it.

anyways, i noticed in one post i said i was at 230.

i'm now at 225. not a huuuuge difference, but hey, it's 5 pounds!

we're starting a "loose to win" thing at work. weigh-in is Tuesday, and then we will
be weighed every month. for every pound you loose, you're entered into a drawing to
win 150$, word. i'm pretty excited about it, it's more motivation that i swear i need.

so, i'm almost back on track, financially.
i need to pay a few more things, plus my Mom back the $700 bucks
for fixing my car... so I'm guessing by the end of July/Mid August I'll be set.

Woohoo!

Works going good. Lifes going good. I'm gonna go eat, so I'll write more later!
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mini updated [17 Jun 2009|01:36pm]
internet on phone is lame.

working out while on period sucks.

finally got groceries. success!

i like dancing horribly.

that's all. xoxo
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rowanrowanrowanrowanrowan [10 Jun 2009|05:09pm]
i think i have stalker! i was gonna go back and start making my recent entires private again (cause like 95% of them are, but i stopped... cause i was lazy). anyways, if you're reading this, stalker, i hope it helps you kill some time! :D

AND ROWAN, WHY ARE YOUR SURVEYS SO LONG!!!!

Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on their bed?
-Why, yes I have!

Ever felt like you're not good enough?
-Yeah, it comes along with being insecure, duh.

Has anyone upset you in the last week?
-People that lie about Javi cheating on me. Keep your mouth shut unless you're choking on a dick, please.

Do you miss anyone?
-Nope. Well, I miss my sister... and the internets.

Do you think two people can last forever?
-Last... like... maybe if you're dracula... but... I mean, we all die.

Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
-It's blonde right now you asshole. ;)

When was the last time you held hands with someone?
-Javi and I are super gay, cause he always reaches for my hand in the car. :3 We like holding hands.

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
-Well, people compliment me on my weirdness. I mean, it'd be nice for someone to be like, "Hey. You look awesome!" but it's mostly "God lily, you are so weird and that's so awesome of you."

Is there one person you look at and automatically smile?
-Javier.

When was the last time you were unhappy with your life?
-I've been pretty content actually, there are little spurts of unhappiness once in a while, but nothing i can really recall.

Do you want your life to stay the way it is now forever?
-I'd like to always be happy, if that's what you asking, but I'm totally up for some adventures.

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
-Ditto. Those special nights are best kept once, that's what fucking makes them special.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
-I liked Javi a lot yesterday. I'll probably like him a lot today, too.

Anyone of the opposite sex been on your mind lately?
-Not really. I've been thinking about my parents a lot, and I think I'm gonna have to start working a shit ton to help them out... They told me not to, but with my Mom being all in therapy right now and my Dad not offically working, I feel I owe it to them to help.

When is the next time you'll hug someone?
-Whenever my Javicakes gets home.

Do you still talk to the person you were dating 4 months ago?
-Yeah.

Are you nice to everyone?
-Everyone... and I mean EVERYONE. Sometimes it sucks, but I can't help it.

What does your newest text say? From who?
-Spend more time with the kittehs!

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
-Well, I'm friends with Tony again. Fixed. Check.

Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
-Maybe one thing, other than that, everything I went through is how I am where I am now, and I'm pretty happy.

Did your parents spoil you as a child?
-My Mom and Dad always got me lots of barbies for christmas :B

Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
-I think I was at... Scott's house with Zach & Steve & their girlfriends, and Javier too of course. Yeah, that was this year.

What do you feel weird without?
-When I'm having an "insecure day" i have this comfort bag I carry. It's like a messenger bag, only smaller and... I dunno, it makes me feel better.

Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
-When I do, it's a brush... my hair is getting longer! :D But... I still don't brush everyday.

What is your relationship status?
-penispenispenispenis.

Whose bed did you sleep in last besides your own?
-Wow, uhm... well, I guess Javi's old bed? When we were house sitting for his parents.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
-Fuck me. Like, 5 1/2 maybe. That's how much I usually get. Ugh.

Do you like funny people or serious people?
-...Both? o_O

What are you listening to?
-Skywatch traffic. I'm at the office using internets (WHICH YOU ALREADY KNOW, STALKER!!) so they have the fm radio on.

Are you wearing any make up right now?
-Eyeliner. It's emo essential wear. That's all.

Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
-I guess. It's just singing to me, but whatever.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a piercing?
-Melissa.

Have you kissed more than ten people this year?
-Just two, Javi and Melissa.

Would you ever date someone who was gorgeous but they had a conceited attitude?
-Probably not, I'm too insecure for that.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
-Oh , actually Knebel! He's on his way back to Texas, woohoo!

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
-Sure have, who hasn't?

Do you have trust issues?
-Of course.

Expecting something to change in the next month?
-I hope to be better off financially. I don't expect things really.

What is the most difficult thing you've ever had to overcome?
-Eh...

Are you an argumentative person?
-Yeah.

Have you talked about marriage with another person?
-Yeah. My thoughts on marriage have shifted here and there throughout the years. It's like, whatever now. It'd be nice though.

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
-Well, I'm friends with Tony, does that answer it?

Have you ever lived with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
-Just two, which... were really my only two "real" boyfriends. Week-long b/fs don't count.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
-Javi and I broke Mandylan's sink. ^___^ It was awesome, in the middle of... erhm, doing me, Javi told me he loved me. It was memorable, lol. I didn't tell him I loved him back for like 3 more months.

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
-Too nice.

Who was the last person to call you?
-Nina.

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
-MONSTEEER!!!

When is the last time you cried?
-Last night. Stupid rumors and I got suckered into believing it kind of. It was emotionally for both of us, he was pretty hurt I'd believe that.

Are you scared of spiders?
-Javi and I were in the garage cleaning, and their were cob webs EEVVVERYWHERE, so I pretending to throw a spider at him and I have never seen that boy jump so high and so fast. It's so fucking cute.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
-Yeah. I wouldn't have made one mistake. The only one I regret. :/

What are your plans for this weekend?
-Family time with the Alvarez's for Eli's b-day, Family time with the Zuniga's to visit my Momma... then drinking!

Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
-I can't swim.

What’s irritating you right now?
-Ghetto ass girls. Actually, no, I'm irratating myself for having any doubts!

What radio station(s) do you listen to?
-None.

Are you afraid of the dark?
-Nah. Not anymore.

Are you listening to music right now?
-Something... and it's something I don't like.

Do you like Chinese food?
-Fuck yeah. Seasame chicken, nom nom nom!

What is the last movie you saw in theaters?
-The Hangover, which was actually pretty good. "I didn't know they gave otu rings at the Holocaust!" xD

Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?
-Nah. I'm good.

Do you get distracted easily?
-Yeah. I get annoyed when I do long surveys, but they help me to focus on something longer than a minute.

What was going through your mind during your last kiss?
-Nothing... actually.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
-For me, to forgive.

Are you jealous of someone?
-Not right now. But I do get jealous.

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
-I am right now.

Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
-Yeah, actually just recently. I had a dream where Claudio, Nina, and Javier all killed themselves. Long time back, I had a really gruesome dream about my godchildren killing themselves. Maybe. It was actually murder I think now, but it was really fucking disturbing.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
-Javier. Always.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
-Yeah, and WHILE i was driving on the highway. Crazy.

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
-I suppose.

Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
-Yeah. Oh well. Sorry.

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
-I think I'm pretty fucking awesome. I'm not like a normal girlfriend, really, I'm super fantastic.

Have you ever dated someone older than you?
-Javier is two years older. Success!
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Dear Internets, [08 Jun 2009|09:22pm]


I miss you.
I am saving money and trying to catch up on all my lame bills that are overdue.
When I do, I will get some internets in my house, and we can be together again.

Love,
Lily


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It's funny cause I just wrote a myspace blog about how much I hate the internet, well.. not the internet, but... read it if you're curios. So work is going good so far. I'm on first shift until the end of the week and then I get to go back to 2nd shift... which is when I will dye my hair orange. Can you guess why! :D It's super lame, but so am I.

In other news, I saw some movies. I saw UP, which was pretty fucking depressing in the opening. Parts throught the movie made me cry too, but that's cause I'm a big fat pussy bitch. Saw the Hangover last night, which was also good. I enjoyed it.

Started talking to Tony again. I know we went through a lot of stuff, but we're ok now. Javi's ok with it too. Which makes me love him more, that he's not some crazy jealous insecure person like I am. I miss Stine. I haven't seen him in forever, so... I need to make that happen too. I'm also anticipating Knebel moving back in a few weeks. I miss those days of hanging out with the Nathans, aw.

What else, what else...

Bugg and Adio are adapting to eachother a little more, which is good...

OH RIGHT, so... tell me if I'm ridiculous about this.

Went to the Girl In A Coma show and felt horrible, I felt even worse cause Nina and Tavo and Javi were there, and Javi ended up sitting out on the bleachers with me cause I had one of my random dizzy/shaky spells... I felt even worse cause Tavo and Nina don't really know eachother and I just leftthem there, and bad that Javi had to sit out with me... well, he didn't have to, but he did...

So there's this guy, probably in his 50's or a very aged 40 year old. Pleated shorts, a white V-Neck shirt, thick black rimmed glasses, and thin buisness socks pulled up with penny loafers. He also had what seemed to be a video bag around him. He was pacing back and forth, hunched over and occasionally talking to himself. He'd stop and glance at people from time to time, but it was mostly pacing. I just watched him, and... is it weird that I'm more interested in people like that then, oh, say the super hot random guy or any of the other rockabilly looking kids? I couldn't help but wonder if something was wrong... maybe he was born that way, maybe he was just worried, maybe something terrible happened.... he lost his wife, never loved again and just was lonely and crazy. I told Javi, "don't you ever wonder about people like that?" and he jokingly said "Oh, they're highly trained." which made me giggle a bit, but I went back to wondering what was up with this guy.

I dunno, I've always thought that, you know? Like the lady downtown who sits on the same corner all the time and always just looks sad. I'm not sure if she's homeless or not, she's very colorful and always has this huge bag with her, but she always looks so sad.

Eh, ok... enough bloggin for now.
I'm gonna hunt down a survey and save that for tomorrow I think, I gotta get back to the apartment and make dinner.

Loooooveeee you.

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[25 May 2009|05:21pm]


So the only thing that sucks about not working at the Hilton anymore is the daily internet access. Boo. It's back to that whole getting online once in a blue moon thing, which is ok, but kinda sucks.

I start work again tomorrow, which I'm both nervous and excited about. I don't know why, I just am. Having a steady and reliable source of income is comforting though. Not sure how I'm going to pay my half of the rent this coming month... ugh. I need to call the bank today and try to hold off payments to my credit card, too. Also gotta call T-Mobile and be like, oh plz don't make me pay yet. Pffft.

I also have this dress, it's this super cute dress that almost fits me except my back. It wont zip up because my back is so wide- my goal was to fit into it by summer but- low and behold, summer's here and it still doesn't fit. I tried getting back on my workout routine, but the day I was gonna start that, my lady-thing started and it was unbelivable bad this time. It's been getting worse, like, I actually get cramps now. Javi actually had to go out and buy me some medicine cause the past three months it's like "Wtfz." I never, ever used to have any pains at all and now it's all fucking hardcore and it scares me. Bleh. So, here's to starting tomorrow! I get off at 5, so I'll come home and hit the gym for a bit.

Gotta start saving for Vegas, too. As much as I can. I've done REALLY good about not buying stupid shit like I used to. You know, buying all kinda of things I don't need but wanted. The only thing I did buy was some glasses off eBay for like 30$ and they ended up not fitting me... so now I'm trying to sell them on craigslist. Boo.

You know, I had stuff to write about but I'm really drawing a blank now. So... I'm gonna go poke at my Mom's stitches now.

Byeeeeeeee.
 

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Survery0rz. [15 May 2009|07:43am]
Have you ever kissed someone in a bathroom?
-Two people, actually. Javier, when we were at Mandylan's house long ago. We did it on her sink and broke it, that's when Javi first told me he loved me, too, haha. Oh, then again at Rain on my birthday last year. With Melissa. It was hot. :3

What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
-I'm drinking power-c vitaminwater right now.

Ever kissed someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend?
-Nah, I'm not down with that.

Are you afraid of roller coasters?
-Patrick took me to Six Flags when he was here last year and I got siiiiick, so I've got a little phobia of them now.

Do you prefer hot or cold weather?
-Cold. I heart winter.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
-Watched Star Trek, and giggled cause the guy after us wanted "Two for Star Wars". Hehe.

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
-On accident, and then in return for breaking mine. :)

Believe in love at first sight?
-Nah.

Name someone that made you laugh today:
-Rowan. Reading her silly answers.

When is your birthday? 
-March 12, same as Cladio's. *_* swooooon. 

Where do you wish you were right now? 
-Right now? Sleeping, in bed next to Javi. 

How many girls do you trust? 
-I trust about 4 girls, and only 2 of them I trust telling evvvverything. 

How many guys do you trust? 
-Javi... and, uh, that's about it. 

Do you curse in front of your parents? 
-Nope. I said the F word on the phone once with my Mom cause I was venting to her, then apologized like jaj03428391 million times. 

At what age do you want to be married?
-If that were to happen, the whole married thing, I'd want it to happen before I'm all old. 28.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
-How does it make her head smell like spit o___O? I'm so confused!

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
-I was born cause my Mom and Dad did the dirty.

Are you a jealous person?
-Yeah, it stems from my insecurity. :/

What time did you go to sleep last night? 
-I triiiied going to bed by 1, but fucking mosquitos came outta no where and bit my hand. ITCHES ON YOUR HAND ARE THE WORST! I couldn't scratch the right area and I kept tossing and turning. It sucked. 

What did you do yesterday?
-Work. Eat Schlotzsky's with Javi. Nap. Clean. Watch Star Trek. Buy Groceries. Wash Clothes. Sleep.

How's your heart lately?
-Thiiisss is such a piiiiittty, we should give our love to eaccchooother...That question reminded me of Weezer, "How is your heart little darling?"..

Did you dream of anything? 
-Not lately (BTW Rowan, you're dreams are ridiculous! Why can't I have dreams like that...) I had a dream that like, Radiohead were playing out in the open fields, like a little festival. Thom got offstage to sing with the crowd, "No Surprises" and he turned around and saw me singing, he smiled, I smiled, we sang, and jsut walked out into the fieldy horizon singing No Surpises. It was weird, but awesome. Just like that weird dream I had about Serj Tankian, where we just sat at the Bus Stop talking about random things. 

Do you look your age?
-When I saw I'm 24 people go "D: Really?! I thought you were like 19!". I look like a kid.

Whether you believe in abortion or not, don't you think it's wrong to have government regulate what you do with your own body? 
-Totally. It's up to each individual.  

Do you think believing in God makes a person stronger or weaker, why or why not?
-For me, I don't think it does much. For my Mom, she thanks God for everything... I remember we were eating dinner and she was like "Did you Thank God for that food?" and I was like, "No, but I'll thank you and Dad." I think that hurt her feelings a little, so I felt bad. As soon as she was outta surgery she thanked God for getting her through, so I respect her beliefs and I think it helps her get through tough times.

Would you ever marry a cowboy?
-If Javi were a cowboy.

Don't you hate hearing about everyone's little problems when there are actual, real problems out there that are so much worse? 
-I like listening, so no matter what I'll listen to anything anyone has to say. Except when I overhear someone crying about their parent's taking their credit card away... Like a bunch of these snooty UT kids that have it all. e_e 

Is Starbucks really worth the $5.00 a cup it charges? 
-Mmm, I finally remembered what Jesus ordered me. Iced Mocha Frappacion. :o==-- drroool. 

Are you receiving a second stimulus?
-Usually abour 3 or 4.... IN MY PANTS. ;D

Do you think gas will go up, now that Obama has secured the White House?
"I think that Obama is gonna take a big negro shit on your face." ROFLMAO XD 

Do you believe he can actually induce change into our nation, or will everything steadily stay the same?
-I got my job back at CFan, so I'm happy :D!

How do you feel about the War in Iraq? 
-I'll be honest, I don't kee 

How do you feel about those new screamo bands? 
-I need an example ;-; I'm bad with genres. 

So, who's rootin' for a High School Musical 4?
-No. Sadface.

Do you think it's better for a teenager to receive a really crappy car as their first car or a really nice one, why or why not?
-A crappy car. You never keep your first car. I guess also cause I resent all those stupid preppy ass kids at high school that got brand spanking new cars their junior year and didn't pay for shit. My first car cost my 500$! And I worked for it >=O!

What's the best and worst things about a snow day? 
-I don't know cause we've never had one. *heartberak* 

I'm sorry, but don't cotton balls just give you the creeps? 
-I can't touch cotton balls. ;-; Their texture, I dunno why, but it sends tingles down my back. My dad used to pick cotton.  

Don't you think everyone would be much happier if they just sat back and took a deep breath?
HAHA WEED. Legalize it!

What about homeless people, couldn't they just get a job like the rest of us?
-Maybe, we have shelters here and they offer their address as a place of residence. I really hate bums that follow you around and harass you though. I give monies here and there, which I shouldn't cause I'm poor, but when I really don't have any, I always run into the mean ones. 

Would you ever work at McDonald's?
-If I had to I guess.

What about somewhere where you had to wear a really horrible uniform, like Hot Dog On A Stick?

-Same.

Have you ever got a puppy and it grew up way bigger than it was supposed to?
-Nah, I thought Riko was gonna be huge, cause he was a german shepard, but he musta been a runt cause he was way small. Zane too, for a pit bull he was tiny.

Do you take in every stray you can from the street and keep it as your own? 
-Not with Bugg around. I did when I was little and lived in Cali, I had like 13 cats at one time. They were all tiny kittens that lived in my doll house, but still. 

What is the best gaming console, in your opinion? Why?
-I'm pretty in love with my 360 so far, so... yeah.

Is it really that entertaining to watch shows like America's Got Talent and American Idol? 
-I dont really watch tv, so I don't know what America's Got Talent is, as for Idol, I really hate that show. 

What about reality shows like Survivor and etc? 
-I like Scrubs and House. :D And the Office, of course. 

Do you like comedic shows like The Office and Scrubs?
-I beat you to this answer!

Are you one of the few South Park hasn't offended yet (meaning you actually still watch it)?
-I agree with Rowan, I'm pretty bored with that show.

Do you think people are offended entirely too easily these days? 
-People are stupid. Like the Highland mall incident during the Texas Relays- they closed the mall down due to lack of security and past videos show lots of fights breaking out during the Texas Relays of past years, so, they do what they think needs to be done, they close the mall early and what do all the Texas Relay People say, "That's Racist!". Wtf. Same thing with the kid that got shot last week, he was wanted, he had a gun, he was fighting with cops, he ran, they shot, now it's "Racist" cause he was black. Ugh. 

If your friend borrows your car and has an accident, are you covered?

-I dunno, I haev full coverage, so maybe?  I don't need it though.

Do you think file sharing (downloading music) is really that horrible of a crime? 
- It's a personal thing. I know people that refuse to download ANYTHING or accept burned cds. Me, the only think I wont download are like, Radiohead and Coheed, only because I want teh album art.

Shouldn't the musicians care a little less if their music is shared around the internet for free, I mean they do make at least a billion a year, right? 
-When you think of all the shit they pay, touring costs, tour staff, etc... they probably don't bring home "billions" or else they wouldn't care. Really though, stores need to lower the prices of CDs. I miss paying 8.99 for new cds versus the stupid 15.99 they charge now. 

Do you really think diamonds are a girl's best friend?
-Not really. I love plastic chunky jewlery ^-^.

You wouldn't prefer a walk in the park instead? 
-Instead of what? Getting mauled by a sabertooth infected with rabis? Sure. 

Aren't rechargeable batteries the best? Do you have any? 
-I always forget to charge mine, too. ;-; 

What is the point to light yellow gel pens that don't show up well on white or black paper?
-Penis.

Do you take vitamins?
-We suck young blood!

Are you a health food nut?
-Negative.

Don't you know no matter how healthy you eat, you are still breathing in our horrible air that is completely polluted?
-Gimme Fuel Gimme Fire Gimme that which I desiiiiree!!! >=O

Do your legs itch after you shave?
-Not anymore! My Mom bought me one of those intuition razors and omg my legs feel gooood. The blades are super expensive though. ;-;

Do you file your fingernails? 
-I chew them off.  

Don't you just hate it that everyone is born with a hair color they don't want so they all dye it a color they do want?
-People are always unhappy witht heir hair. Curly hair people want straight hair, straight hair people want curly, I want orange hair... Change is nice.

Is a good sound system in a car something that is important to you? 
-Yes, because I love driving downtown when everyone is getting ready to go clubbin and all that, and blasting Tejano music really loud with lots of bass. :3 

What would be your deciding factors in buying a car, with a limited budget, of course?
-I want a red Nissan Versa. ;-;.

Would you factor in gas and insurance premiums as well, or would you focus just on the car and how nice you'd look in it?
-Gas and comfyness.

Have you ever given a dog peanut butter?
-Actually, no...

Don't you hate all those questions about your exes all the time? 
-They don't really bother me. 

Do you think they will keep raising the price of stamps until they are $10.00 each?
-Waaaaah.

What about Now CDs, do you think they will be producing them until they are up to Now 10,000?
- i miss the punk-o-rama Cds, are those around anymore?

Would you want pearly white carpet in your house?
-I want grass green carpet so I always feel outdoorsy. :B

What about black carpet?
-Nah.

Do you like plastic blinds or wood blinds better? 
-o_o Wtfs. Lol, it's cool. I have plastic blinds, but not by choice. I like curtains. 

Do you know what the "massage" settings on fancy showerheads are REALLY used for?
-It massages my back and feels ooooh so good.

Do you like really short people or really tall people better?
-I dunno, I feel like a giant around Zach and Steve's girlfriends, I'm only like 2 inches taller but their petite so that makes me feel ginormous. So I like being around tall boys, and tall girls, so I don't feel so big. 


GEE that was a long survey. (Yes, yes it was. x_X It's too early for this much!)
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Life as of now... [13 May 2009|08:09am]
[ mood | sad ]

So I've gotten two calls about Bugg. One lady called to say (she lives up on the third floor of my building) that two cats were fighting Sunday night around 10:30, she said they were at it for a while and she had to come out and make noise for them to scramble. She said that they both seemed to walk away just fine though.

Another lady called to say she had seen Bugg for the past two days on the winding road behind Target, which makes sense cause it's tall grass and dirt and some dry spots, which Bugg loves to roll around in. We walked around the area and called her name, came across another pretty cat, but it wasn't her. So, no luck yet.

Yesterday was my Mom's surgery. She got to the hospital around 8am. They started on her around 10:30am, and she wasn't done til 2pm. We didn't get to see her until 4 (and they left us hanging for an hour, which was nerve wrecking.) We finally saw her and she was still heavily medicated. It was funny and weird and sad seeing her like that. She was like a little kid. I fed her a popsicle cause for some reason her lips were super dry and chapped. And pale... which was scary cause she looked like my Grandma... which didn't really offer me any comfort if you know what I mean.

I'm going by there today. She was suppose to be released today, but they may keep her til Friday. My Dad tried staying the night with her, but his back pains were so bad he got sick and had to go home. I want to stay with her, but I know it's not needed and I'd hate to be like, "Hey, I know my alst day is Friday, but I'm not coming in the next two days!". Ugh.

So, that's it as of now. Hopefully the rest of the week turns in a different direction.

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[11 May 2009|10:09am]
Bugg ran away.

Last time my cat ran off, I had to pick her up days later, frozen, from Paws.

I can't stop crying and I want to go home.
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Adio Superstar [08 May 2009|11:43am]
Yeah, she has Bugg's last name. :3

Anyways, check out my flickr page to see our new baby! The links up top. <3
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Guilt. [05 May 2009|12:49pm]
[ mood | nostaligic ]

Everytime I'm alone and I pass the Capital...

All I can remember is that warm sunny day and the smile on your
face as I looked up and saw you standing over me.

I've never held on to anything more than that memory.

Suck. [04 May 2009|08:17am]
[ mood | disappointed ]


So, we decided we'd go to New Mexico for our annual out-of-state trip. We decided to be like old people and go to the Balloon Festival in New Mexico in October. We wanted to ride a balloon and just enjoy the chilly weather, plus it's in driving distance so we wouldn't have to worry about airfare.

Because it's a special event, even with my Hilton discount- there are NO rooms available at a discounted price. Rooms go, everywhere, for about $199 a night.

The biggest bummer- Balloon rides, for an hour, are $350 per person. That's a month's worth of rent.

I'm a little hearbroken, but we've decided we should go somewhere else. You know, unless we decided to play the lotto and win it big.

Bleh.

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[01 May 2009|11:27am]
[ mood | fuck fuck fuck yeah! ]


So I'm sitting at my desk. Bored as usual. Eating my cup-o-noodles, ugh, I hate cup-o-noodles sometimes.

My phone rings. Unknown number, I don't pick up of course.

A voicemail? That's weird, but ok, so I check it.

"Hi Lily, this is Laura from Cfan..."

I start shaking, literally, I have never been this excited about a job. I'm fucking elated.

May 26th I go back. Hot shit, in the words of Ice Cube, "Today was a good day." Ooh-ahh.

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